Responsible Vulnerability


Vulnerability. It seems like such a loaded word. At first blush it elicits visions of rolling over, submitting, being powerless. And yet, it can be a rich source of empowerment and intimacy when we know how to do it skillfully.

We all have a desire to show ourselves and be received. There is a tenderness that the softer sides of us almost desperately want others to see. And yet, why is it that so many of us are afraid of being vulnerable?

I believe it is because we think it makes us weak, shameful, and ultimately unlovable. It requires us to show parts of ourselves to others that we are afraid they won't like, and often asks us to acknowledge aspects of ourselves that we ourselves don’t like. And yet, a fundamental element to creating and experiencing the joy of authentic relationships is being willing to be fully revealed.

The trick is to express our emotions while also being fully responsible for ourselves and our experience. This means not expecting anything from the receiver of our vulnerability. All too often when people are vulnerable, they do so from a place of giving to get where they share vulnerability in the hopes that the other person will fix or make things better. This invariably creates unspoken expectations and creates an imbalance in the relationship.

The noblest thing we can do when we ask for help is to be actively helping ourselves in the process. In many ways when we hold ourselves with dignity through both the sadness of grief and the ecstasy of abandon we are showing others that it is safe for them to be in it with us.

We all subconsciously and consciously resist taking others baggage upon ourselves. While we may be conditioned to take on other people's stuff, our bodies and hearts know better and when we are asked to shoulder more than we can carry it can often create shades of resentment and resistance which then causes more separation and loss of trust.

It is important to note that much of this happens on subtle levels that are hard to see, but the effects of these unspoken expectations inevitably strain our relationships in small but incremental ways. Consciously or subconsciously, people begin to pull away, become less available, and worse become passive aggressive because their own needs aren't getting met.

The trick is to feel fully, but also not lose ourselves. To be fully in our suffering, and also fully present in our awareness. There is no loss of consciousness or a distancing away from what is happening. There is a term disassociation in modern psychology that speaks to when a person disconnects from their surroundings. This is normal and a useful tactic when someone is experiencing a traumatic event or incident.

When we share vulnerability with another, we are in essence asking them to hear our story or feel and perhaps even relive our pain. In order to do this in a healthy balanced way that honors both speaker and listener, requires both sides to be as present as they can be.

I believe much of co-dependency happens because of this lack of presence. As children, most of us were not taught how to process our emotions and as a way of relinquishing responsibility and coping with situations either turned them off or found ways to release them, often through aggression, dominance, or even submission.

But we are not children anymore.

Healthy, empowered relationships ask us to step into a greater sense of responsibility for our experience, feelings, and the impact we are having on others. At times we may be overwhelmed, and that's when sharing what's on our hearts and minds or simply turning to a warm shoulder to cry on is useful. But during that process, let's not lose ourselves and forget that we are responsible, that we are not victims. This keeps everyone involved safe.

All this said, at times, even the best of us fall apart and lose any sense of how to hold ourselves. I know I have. And that's ok too. As friends and loved ones, it is our responsibility to know when the limits of our emotional and mental boundaries are about to be reached and do what we can to avoid hitting our limit.

This may require a compassionate understanding that the person we are holding space for may not be resourced enough to hold themselves, and that our role in these times is to provide as much as we can, and when we are close to our limits to lovingly step away, if only temporarily to recharge and clear our space.

A simple, but potent, tool to use when we are vulnerable is to place one of our hands on a part of our body that feels emotionally tender or is asking for some support. Often this can be the area of the heart or even our bellies. Gently pushing against our body, breathing deeply into where our hand and body make contact, and allowing ourselves to fall just a bit into our own hands is a highly reaffirming action and does wonders for our psyche and nervous systems.

This opens a pathway of inner awareness and provides an anchor point from which we can find ourselves again even when we feel lost in a swirl of emotions, pain, and process. This can also be something that we offer to others as we hold space for them. Simply asking them to place their hands on their heart or belly and taking a couple of breaths can often bring someone back to presence, fresh perspective, and wisdom.

Responsible Vulnerability is a courageous skill we as a society haven't quite learned yet. It requires maturity and a dedication to bringing the best of ourselves into relations, even when we're at our worst. It isn't always easy, or what we want to do in the moment, but I believe it is a vital part of having the higher levels of conscious relationship many of us desire.

When we raise our awareness and responsibility around what is being asked of us both as the vulnerable and the witness, we discover how this process can become a beautiful, integral part of how we guide each other, and ourselves, back home.~

~ Justin Lee


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